loved.

i'm not good at loving people.

i hate easily when i feel intimidated.

i'm not good at loving people,

because i only know how to love,

but i do not know how to pay back their love.

i'm not good at loving people,

because i tend to hurt them the most

and these are all beyond my control.

i have the feelings, that my nightmares would happen, soon.

and no, it's not about him.

bangang!

bhaiiii, kalau lu tak suka wa, lu cakap depan-depan boleh tak bhaaii?

tak payah lu nak tunjuk baik depan wa. siot je tak pasal-pasal lu bikin wa nangis nampak lu dengan perempuan lain.

cilaka, haram jadah betul la lu bhaiiii!!!!!

i promise you this,

you know what they say, friends come and go, but the love one would stay.

yes, very true.

i might end up being one of them, the friends.

but no worry,

i would not go far away,

for i would watch you from afar, and silently.

i would try not to let you slipping or even thinking of tipping.

you would always have my back, my supports, my prayers, my presence, when things didn't go your way.

just to let you know, you would never end up fighting alone.

i am no longer envying, or feel threatened by the presence,

since i know how much this relationship means to you.

you would always have me, that i promise i would stay here, always, and forever.

closer that you could always reach me whenever or wherever you want,

even by that time, i might already have him, the love ones (whoever he might be) by my side.

sure, friends.

.

very true.

i had enough explaining myself to you.

why?

i used to be very picky.

i only want this, and not that.

i don't want that, but this.

but now, i just take it for whatever it is.

i do not try to choose,

it is as if i no longer have any options.

it just, i have to take it.

and

i do not know why i couldnt refuse.

tanda tanya

hurm,

ada satu perasaan,

yang melonjak-lonjak,

tapi tidak dapat dihuraikan,

perasaan,

kamu ini apa?

tak suka dah, kut

kau ada rumah cantik, besar.

kau macam anak orang kaya.

A MAJOR TURN OFF

sayang,

kadang-kadang, aku rindu.

kadang-kadang, aku mahu

tapi sekarang, aku tak mahu ambil tahu.

kut?

tipu.

rules in this blog ;

don't believe everything you read,

never believe everything you see.

cause sometimes it was all twisted,

like me.