Tak Bisa

During our last karaoke session, and you sang a song from Slank, entitled "Ku Tak Bisa". And there's the lyrics,

Ku tak bisa,

Jauh...jauh...darimu...

Please know that, I can't stand being far away from you. This longing is killing me.

Oh God, I miss him.

Longing

It's all started with a simple question on how to measure a tank, then it continued to a teasing in lunch table. You called me fat, how rude..but that's the way you are, and I'm not offended.

Then you start asking me out. To karaoke. Out of nowhere, and we're not even that close pun. I like your voice. I like how you teasingly sang the songs to me. I like the way you blow your smoke up to the air.

I like how you came searching me to help you with your work. I like how actually it's never a work.

I like how clean your car is. I like how you look nervous driving when I'm on your side. I like how you looked sad when the last night we went out together. I like how you smile shyly when I said 'hi' to you.


I like you too much. Too much it hurts.
You, I miss you.
Terribly.

Tak Tertahan

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I miss you terribly. I want to be back in Kerteh. Back in my desk, where I could sit near you, sniffing your perfume mixed with you blue Winston ciggs smells. I miss you so much. I know you don't feel the same, but I miss you. Please text me, please talk to me, please just please show some signs.

God, please help me. I'm hopeless now, I'm helpless. Please help me, oh God. Ease my heart. I just miss him so much it hurts. I want to cry now. Please God, please help ease my heart.

I Really Like You

Well, you haven't see the gifts yet. But i do hope that you'd love it. It's sad to think that I can't see your handsome face ever again. And prolly, I'll stop writing about you here. Or prolly stop writing altogether until I've got some other muse(s) to write.

Take care there, you. Hopefully, you'll miss me. And don't ever forget about me.

Do keep in touch, please.

"Keep In Touch"

Is it a promise? I hope so.

121212

It was a perfect date, and it was our last date. I was unhappy and you looked the same too. I don't have the hearts to leave you. But I do cherish our every moments together. I really am hoping that you won't forget me.


I love you. If only you knew.

Date, Date!

"Bila Bella nak belanja ni?"
"Bila abang free?"
"Hari hari pun free" and I think I saw a naughty smile.
"Esok, boleh?"
"Boleh" you answered shyly.
"Okay"

And I swear to God that I'm so happy I can't do my work cause I can't focus! Oh, youuu I want you so very badly!

Thank you Allah, for listening to my prayer. Alhamdulillah :)

Dialogues

"Mana kerja saya?"
"Saya dah bagi kat abang, kan?"
"Oh, dah bagi eh?"


And there's the smile. Oh.
Sorry, I'm obsessed with this man.

Wait

You came yesterday. But I was more surprised with what you have to say,

"Bella kata nak belanja, tapi takdak pon,"

I don't know that you really mean it. I don't know that you've waited. I did wait for your text!


But I'm happy nevertheless, to know that you're looking forward to have a date with me.
Hihi.

Beg

Please ya Allah, I want him to be the one for me. Amin, amin, amin.

Hm

My heart aches for him. My heart wants him so very badly. I want him so very badly. I just want to know whether he feels the same. I want to know whether he wants me too, the way I really want him.

Oh God, I really like him. Please let him be mine. Please, ya Allah.

Care.

"Lecturer Bella datang bila? Esok eh?"

I'm surprised that you asked me this question. I thought you don't bother at all.

If only we could have a date together. Just the two of us. If only.

Please,

Ya Allah, please grant my wish. He is my only wish.

Memory

"Amira Nabilla, ini dia fail awak,"

Oh my God, honestly I was surprised when you came and gave me the files. I'm sorry for being such a nuisance. I'm supposed to help you with your work. But you just do every single things that I've asked you. I lost my words for your actions. Thank you, you.

But, what surprises me more is when you remember my name! You remember my full name! Oh you, oh you, you've melted my heart. I like you so much, so very much.

I don't care what stories they told me about you. I just want you. Ya Allah, please grant my prayer. Amin, amin, aminnn.

Date.

I've told you that I could only treat you. Only you, and no one else. I know that that got you thinking.

Please ask me out to Kuantan. Let's have a date, just the two of us.


Please.

Wanting

You talked to me! He talked to me today! I'm so happy! Oh God, I wanna marry him. Jodohkanlah aku dengannya, ya Allah.

Amin, amin.

Love.

I love you.


But I know we're not going anywhere.
:'(

Sad Realization

I think I'm only syok sendiri.

Hm.

Back

You're back. More mixed signals. And I don't think you'll be here during my last week.

Lost

Seriously, where are you? It's been a long five days since I last saw you. I'm starting to miss you so much.

Yours

The feelings I get when I smelled your perfume mixed with your blue Winston ciggs.


Hmmph.

Giddy

Hihi.

He added me on facebook. He found my facebook. He added me. I'm so happy. Even my sv didn't add me on his facebook. But he did. He added me to his friendlist in facebook. Oh God I'm really so happy that he added me. These past few weeks I keep wishing that he would add me in facebook. And now he did.

He add me in facebook. He really did.


Hihi.