Wishes And Plans

I always believe in God's plan. I don't know what He's planning for me, but all I know is it's for our own goods. Like when I had my break up with my ex, it was what I need the most. I don't need the relationship. I just want them because of reasons.

And then you, the sequences of our meet ups is so carefully plan by Him. And I was thankful, and really grateful. Plus, almost my every wish of you did came true! Yes, most of them! Seriously.

First, my break up with my ex, then you started talking to me. You knew my name before you even bother talking to me pun. And then you asked me to karaoke, out of nowhere! We're not that close pun for you to ask me such question! And then you told me about your guitar, you gave me your works, you start getting comfy around me and I, being myself start taking advantage for every chances to gaze upon your beautifully handsome face.

And then the texts and whatsapp and the call that I've missed. And now the facebook.

I'm seriously hoping that these would lead us to somewhat a better future.


You're my only wish. And you still are.

I Miss You

You're not around today. Maybe you had training, maybe you're not well. Well, whatever the reasons are, I hope you're doing fine. I miss you terribly. I miss your dashing smile the most.

Love.

"Hi,"

I can't get rid the picture of you smiling and smirking with a daze and adorably confused eyes of yours when I first stepped into your car.

I said 'Hi', and you're like, 'Hi' with a tone of a child first getting candies from a stranger

It was adorable. Too adorable, and handsome and I've melted again (I even think that I've evaporated into the air). Oh you, oh you, what have you done to my heart?

Reasons

People say you don't need reasons to fall in love. But, I always wanted to beg to differ. I think we need to know why we love/like the person we fall for instead of just falling.

But it was before I met you. You're different. You're wonderful. If people ask me, why do I like you so much I'd probably stand there clueless and speechless because honestly, I don't even know why I like you.

Come to think of it, I don't even like you at the first place. What's with your fierce face, the way you never acknowledge me in the office, your attitude as told by the guys and with me witnessing it myself, that's not something worth to fall for.

But I fell anyway.

Now I know how does it feel not knowing why you like someone. It's a very wonderful feeling (even you don't know how I feel and probably you don't feel the same) but anyhow, I like these feelings - whatever they are.

I never felt like this with anyone. I've always know why I like someone, or why I wanna stay with them. But with you, it's different. Totally different.

All I know now is, I want to make you happy. I want to be the person who you can count on, the person you confide in, the person who'll always be there for you. I want to make you feel loved, and safe. I want to take care of you and your heart. And most importantly, I want to always be the reason behind your dashing smiles. That smile that has melted my heart for a countless times. I want to earn that smile, and make it mine. Just mine.

Random

I was listening to my songs when you came and kick my table. I know you're coming but I was shocked anyway. You surprised me! And then you smiled that handsome smile of yours, and I even forgot that I'm mad at you for being bipolar.

Oh God, I like him so much I want him to be mine.

Bipolar

Honestly, what is wrong with you? You're suddenly being cold to me like I've done something wrong to you. And what makes it worse is I don't even know why. You're okay before, what's up with the fierce face? Just two days ago we went karaoke together, having dinner, and driving around in your car, and now, wow? Like you don't even know me pun.

I'll give you benefit of doubt. Probably u're just stress about you work. But whatever. I'm having my share of PMS too, you know.

Nyum

You look so handsomely masculine with that coverall and your wet hair. I like you so much. Very much.

Smell

I like your smell. You always smell nice. The combination of your cigs with your perfume, it never fail to make me drool.

Hmmph.

Makbul

1. Ride in your car
2. Late night talks (okay not so much of talking because you're already sleepy)
3. Your cigarettes' brand
4. You, texting me



Alhamdulillah, ya Allah. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

Syukur 21

Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah, ya Allah! :D

He texted me!

Sad Kitty

I don't wanna run away from you! I want you! I'd rather sit in the office doing your work, listening to your jabberings and random rantings than going to site. Yes, that's how much you mean to me.

Please, please don't give up on me and please cheer up. Smile to me. You don't smile to me pun today :(

Over

You told my friend that I'm sort of running away from you. If only you know how happy I was at the opportunity of helping you doing your work.

My chance is now zero. I should start meeting therapist to help me forget you.

Wishful Thinking

I wish to spend my weekend with you. You'd take me to the beach or simply just driving around in your car. Or maybe it could be a dinner with just the two of us talking heart to heart with a bit of eye staring contest.

Oh, but that's just a dream and it would never happen. Imma sad kitty :(

Wanting

I want you to be mine. Oh God, please please and please grant my prayer ya Allah.

I know his attitude, but I just want him :/

A Stubborn Heart

If my technician were right, (and I hope he is) I hope you could show more visible signs. Because I really want you, despite whatever they say about your attitude. I still like you.

Moodsie

I don't know that you could effect my mood this much. When I don't see you for a day, I felt empty. It's not like I can't live without you, but life with you sounds more promising and even better.

A Question,

Do you miss me?

Cause I miss you. So much. Very much.

Try

One of the technician told me that you're actually trying to 'adjust' me.


I really, really, really hope that he was right.

The Stare

I like when we're both staring into each other's eyes. I like it when you stared into my eyes. I never know you could hold eye contact for that long.

Stare into my eyes, and don't ever stop.

I want you so very badly.

Scandalous

I heard about your previous fling. Wow! Now I know your taste. But never mind, I'm still very comfortable with myself.

How I wish I am as lucky as her.

Missing

Today I talked to you first thing in the morning. Then we had a little chat while we both went down to the technicians rooms, and then you teased me when I was helping one of my colleague with his resume.

In the afternoon, I waited for you but you're having a meeting.

Now I miss you. So much.

Moody

Too many awkward moments with you today. And yes, I do feel gloomy. Maybe because I just realized that I have only so little time to be with you.

Confused

Too many bad signs, too many good signs. Now I'm confused and my heart ache. I don't know what to hope for anymore, but I'm still kinda happy when you called my name just now.

Sigh. This is none of my bussiness. I should let God decide.

High

Hopefully I'll get to see you, tomorrow. I've started missing you so very badly.

Reference

Referring to post below, I'm scared of myself. I really sound like a creep.

What have you done to me, you?

Signs Signs Signs

Hey, maybe I'm being overexcited but did you know about the news yet?

Just in case, I'd just want to tell you that ... we might have a bigger and better chance of being together now.


Hihi.

I Like Being With You

I do. I really do.

Berat

"Dia takpe la, berat dia 75 kg, macam abang ni, 100 kg, macam mana nak kejar dia?" One of the technician said to me while referring to you.

And suddenly you said,

"Bukan 75 kg lah, 72 kg"


Okay, I may be obsessed but you sound so cute like that. We all know you're not heavy. 3 kg is nothing pun. So sensitive lah you, so adorably handsome!

Rindu

Ni baru cuti 5 hari. Macam mana kalau lepas habis intern nanti? I'm going to miss you so much.


Sadly, you prolly wouldn't know about it, or you won't care. Kan?

Tell Tale

People say, if you want things to work out between you and your crush, keep it quiet.

I've kept quiet about you for about two and half months now but few days ago, I've told two people about you; my mom and my best friend.

I still hope we can still work out. I'm being a bit supertitious and paranoid right now.

How We Started Talking

June:
I saw you in the office and I kinda not like you. I once thought you're a technician but turned out I was wrong. You're a super engineer.

July:
I saw you at the BOG. You're calling me 'adik' and you asked me to help pick up the permit to work that flew from where it was hang.
And then you even borrowed my camera for you to take pictures in the workshop. You're fierce and I'm kinda scared of you.

August:
You asked me to help you with the report for cooling tower pump. You don't bother asking my name. You just want your job done. I still don't really like you at this time.

September:
You jokingly (but kind of fiercely, too) scolded me and my friend for watching a movie on one of the computer in the room while waiting for our work. I don't really give a damn during that time. But secretly I've been falling for you during this time.

October:
You knew my name and you helped me with my problems. I was surprised when you called my name. Wow. You know my name!
And we had lunch together, with some other people too.

November:
We went karaoke with your friends and my friend.
You started being friendly and joking around.
You sang to me. Let's not forget that.
You asked me to help you with your work, which prolly the last thing I thought you'd do cause you always look superior and independent. But that was a good thing anyway cause in that way, I could be closer to you somehow.
Oh, and let's not forget our conversation in the room. You're smiling and laughing and being all charming.


Oh, what a chronology we have here. Hopefully it would end with us finally getting end up together. Amin!

Answers

Andy Warhol once quoted:

"As soon as you stop wanting something, you get it."


But I could never stop wanting you. How can I get you, then?

Every

Every things I read, remind me of you.
Every love songs I heard, would always remind me of you
I just miss you alot.

Pray

When I have crush, I usually pray for them to be happy with whoever they are with, even if it's not with me. The only thing I want is for them to be happy.

But with you, I would always pray for us to be together. I want you to be happy with me. I want to be the one who could make you happy. But I don't know, you're so complicated.

It's A One Sided Love

It's bad, the fact that I can't take the thought of you off my mind.

I bet you don't even think of me, at all.

Let's

So hey, they said we just need to find a person who can make us happy and then we can be happy forever.

If it's only that simple.

So, hey. You've made me happy, can we just be together? I promise I'd do anything to make you happy, too.

Help

I was looking for you to help me with the work you've given me. But then you look so fierce and unfriendly today. I was scared. But then you came and asking me if I needed any help, and when I said yes, you gladly helped me. You sit on the handle of my chair and honestly, I think that was very lovely of you to do that. I wasn't awkward at all, instead I feel very comfortable. With you, everything is comfortable. I like you so much. And that act with the sweets, oh. You've killed me with it.

Missus

I miss you already. What have you done to me? I can't stop thinking of you. I miss you so much. I can't wait for Sunday to come.

Sweet

I like it how you came up to my table to ask me how I was doing and just like that you took one of the sweets that I put on my table. I like the fact that you acted all comfortable around me, that made me feel good and pretty awesome.

By the way, I think you're the one who ate the sweets I left on my table yesterday, right?

Five

I'll be gone today. I won't be able to meet you since I'd be on my holiday. I will miss you, I think I would and that depress the hell out of me. If only we could keep in touch. I would really love to have a conversation with you.

But no biggie, I'll be back again next Sunday and hopefully I'll get to see your bright, dashing, and handsome smile.
Oh.

Love

I feel calm around you, and if I were not with you, I would miss you and I won't feel good.

God, why I like you too much I don't understand.

Welcome To Jamrock

And you've rocked my world.

Stay, please.

:)

I pray everyday for us.

Alhamdulillah

Ya Allah, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!!
I am so grateful to you for everything that happened today. He made me really happy! He took care of me, he showed his care (even I know he's joking) and I really love his attention. Ya Allah, I really like this man, ya Allah, please grant my prayer.

Amin amin.

Perhaps

When I was lost,
about my feelings to you,
I went asking for some signs from Him.
When I was losing hope,
I asked him to put you away from me,
So I won't think about you,
So my feelings for you would diminish slowly,
And yesterday,
I finally realized that I maybe daydreaming,
That I'm so pathetic for wanting you so badly that I forgot you don't even know how I feel about you.
And I've asked Him again, for signs.
That if you're the one, let us be together, please ease our way,
And if you're not, put you away from me, and from my mind.

And today,
You gave me work, you talked, making jokes,

You smiled that handsome smile, and you laughed, too.
I feel so blessed.

Youuu

I hate the fact that I keep thinking of you. I hate the fact that I always want to meet you. I don't like it that I always hoping that I could meet you somewhere, anywhere. No. That's why I need to get rid of from my system. I don't know whether you're the one for me. I hope you are, but it seems impossible.

I am pathetic and sad.

No.

I must forget you. I need and have to forget you. This obsession has got to stop.

Row

Two nights. I've dreamt of you for two nights in a row.

God, please. Is this a sign?

Sigh,

I don't know why I am expecting a text or whatsapp from you. It's not that you have my number or anything.

But I know I'm not your type, and I could only wish for you from afar.

Angau

I hope and pray that I am the one who can open up your heart. I seriously can't stop thinking of you.

Forever

You're on my mind all the time. It seems that I can't stop thinking of you. I even dreamt of you last night, and I our conversation yesterday keep replaying on my mind.

This is dangerous. Way too dangerous.

Oh God, please show me the way. Is this temporary crush, or is this real?

Only

Can I say that I honestly think that you're the one?

Signs

We talked today. We talked for about an hour, and it was a record for both of us.

He came with intention to tease me regarding our previous karaoke session when I sang the song 'Bila Cinta Didusta' by Screen. And there I was playing Scrabble with my favourite technician. He surprised me when he stopped and talked to me. He even helped with the game, too! And then we talk and talk, talking about gilrfriend, about his life, his student life, foods, choice of music, instruments he's playing, his plan of going to islands for diving, and a lot more. That was absolutely fantastic to know that much about the person I truly like the most.

I don't know if it's a sign from Him, but somehow I feel blessed and I feel like God is answering my prayer. Ya Allah, I really feel happy with this man, I want him to be mine. I pray that he'd be mine. Ya Allah, if he's the one, please show me the signs and if he's not, please make my heart stop liking him. I like him too much and I want him too much that I am afraid of what I'm capable of.

All Around

I don't only like you, I honestly think I've started to fall in love with you.

Thank you Allah for these wonderful feelings.

Dumbstruck

These feelings get stronger. And just by looking at you, I'll smile like an idiot all day long.

Ringtones

Whenever I listened to the song that you made as your ringtone, I'll always get the giddy feelings. I guess I like you that much, or probably too much.

You don't know how happy I was when I finally get to know what song you're using as your ringtone. I always love the song, like how I always like you.

Pleads

I need to remind myself not to be greedy. Yes, I want you. I want you all for myself. I want us to happen. I want us to be real. I want to write about you while you are with me. I want to be happy with you, because I know insyAllah, I will. You can make me happy, insyAllah.

I like you. I like you too much. I like how you make me feel. I like these feelings. I like how I feel when I'm with you.

Ya Allah, please make us happen. If he's the one for me, please show me the way. And if he's not, please stop these feelings and please stray him away from me so I will be not living in my dreams anymore.

You!

I, I love you like a love song, baby!

Charmed

I can't keep my eyes off you, and I do feel comfortable around you. You, I really hope that we're meant to be.

Gf

I think you've already have a girlfriend. But I can take it. You deserve to be with someone who'd give up the world to be with you. Because you are worth it.

I like you so much I want to say I love you.

Sing Song

U sang a song and you change the name to my name. You sang the song to me. This may be nothing to you, but it means a lot to me.

:)

I know this is not the occasion that I should be thankful for, but still I thanked you, God for the awesome experience today. I get to be closer to the person I like the most and I am sure of my feelings. I don't feel like wanting to be somebody else and I don't have the pressure to impress him. I like him so much. I am sure.

Thank you Allah, Alhamdulillah.

Hunch

I really like it when I always have the butterflies in my stomach. That means I'll get to see you. Like just now. I get to be with you. You're awesome, you're handsome.

Senyum

Smile to me,
Smile for me,
Just do whatever,
You've made me happy.

Thank you, God.

Love

In the morning, I saw you dancing the chicken dance. And in the evening, you said hi to me. Asking me to go karaoke with you tonight.

Oh lovely, lovely. Thank you, God. These are blessings. Thank you, thank you.

Dance Dance

You look lovely dancing that chicken dance. I know you're not frigid.

I really really like you.

Possible

I like you too much I think I've started to fall in love with you.

Thank You,

God is good, and you're lovely. I would like to have your smile, all for myself for the rest of my life.

Hihihi

I'm all giddy up today. You talked to me. Many times too! You remember my yellow shoes, (but hey, there's no ribbon! Lol) and you asked me out to karaoke with you and your friends. Yeah, I know you wanted to get to know my friends, or probably her - the new engineer. But no biggie, as long as I'm with you, I'm all good.

You really can't take your eyes off a beautiful lady, can you?

Hm :(

I should stop liking you. I think it's so pathetic for me to like someone like you. But then your smile,

Your smile killed me.