What if --

We have so much in common.

I hope I was wrong.

But, I think we might end up together.

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Griffin,

You know what,

We are like the characters in Family Guy,

I am Meg, and you are Neil.

And we are not gonna end up together.

2-

I want a guy who would make faces and shook his head for disapproval when I asked him to accompany me to go to lots and lots of boutiques when we're going out.

Not a guy who jumps and shouts "Yeahhhh, let's roll baby!" everytime I mentioned MALL and SHOPPING.

Understood?

.

The truth,

I don't like you.

Pretty much I look like a badass, ain't I?

They keep it shut.

That's why.

My fairlady,

I think he suffered enough, indeed I always feel that he suffered more than you do.

But he just don't tell.

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Remy Starr

I read "This Lullaby" a novel by Sarah Dessen.

The main character is a bitter bitch who doesnt believe in love. She does not believe in forever. She build a wall around her heart but nevertheless she still having relationships with I could say, with hundreds of guys around her.

And she broke up just like that after she felt that the guy is falling for her.

Until she met Dexter.

I still havent finish my reading yet and I think I could expect what the ending would be.

But then there were some quotes that have slapped (literally of course) on my face. About not trusting and protecting our heart from love for the believe that it would be broken by a guy (or anyone) and for the fact that it would hurts a lot like hell.

And one of the character asked "Would you rather end up being lonely?"

And she also said something like this - yes, the relationships mostly end but I have a good time. I loved and I have been loved and I only could remember the happy memories.

And most of all, love conquers a big portion in my life. And I am not scared to risk my heart for it would be broken because I know somehow it would worth it.

Why do I read love story when I thought that I was in peace?

And why the hell I'm writing this?

Hate that because now I felt sorry for myself for not letting anyone to love me and not letting myself to love anyone.

I'm just not ready for any. I'm tired.

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Sangat tenang.

I see colours everyday. I hear pleasant musics every hour. I laugh uncontrollably.

I do not wait. Anymore.

It comes, and go. I don't bother.

I greet and say goodbye.

It comes, and go.

I accept, and reject.

And I never thought I would be this peace.

:)