Perhaps

When I was lost,
about my feelings to you,
I went asking for some signs from Him.
When I was losing hope,
I asked him to put you away from me,
So I won't think about you,
So my feelings for you would diminish slowly,
And yesterday,
I finally realized that I maybe daydreaming,
That I'm so pathetic for wanting you so badly that I forgot you don't even know how I feel about you.
And I've asked Him again, for signs.
That if you're the one, let us be together, please ease our way,
And if you're not, put you away from me, and from my mind.

And today,
You gave me work, you talked, making jokes,

You smiled that handsome smile, and you laughed, too.
I feel so blessed.